1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.BZ 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.BZ 3 00:00:42,421 --> 00:00:43,871 [horse neighing] 4 00:00:46,874 --> 00:00:48,600 [horse neighing] 5 00:00:58,161 --> 00:01:03,235 [dog barking in distance] 6 00:01:08,447 --> 00:01:09,966 Lyna! 7 00:01:47,624 --> 00:01:54,286 [water splashing] 8 00:01:58,256 --> 00:02:08,300 [humming] 9 00:02:08,300 --> 00:02:16,653 [humming] 10 00:02:28,148 --> 00:02:36,535 [humming] 11 00:02:43,163 --> 00:02:50,170 [humming] 12 00:02:51,309 --> 00:02:53,034 [horn honking] [horses neighing] 13 00:02:53,034 --> 00:02:58,350 [horses neighing] 14 00:02:58,350 --> 00:03:08,395 [truck motor rumbling] 15 00:03:08,395 --> 00:03:18,784 [truck motor rumbling] 16 00:03:39,184 --> 00:03:53,198 [♪♪♪] 17 00:03:53,198 --> 00:03:55,442 [truck engine starting] 18 00:03:55,442 --> 00:04:05,486 [♪♪♪] 19 00:04:05,486 --> 00:04:15,462 [♪♪♪] 20 00:04:15,462 --> 00:04:20,605 [♪♪♪] 21 00:04:20,605 --> 00:04:22,331 [sobbing] 22 00:04:22,331 --> 00:04:27,025 >>Lyna: All she said to me was to be good, and to listen. 23 00:04:28,958 --> 00:04:30,822 And she never said anymore. 24 00:04:34,170 --> 00:04:36,379 They had no expectations. 25 00:04:38,312 --> 00:04:43,317 I don't think they could even fathom what would happen. 26 00:04:43,317 --> 00:04:53,293 [♪♪♪] 27 00:04:53,293 --> 00:05:03,337 [♪♪♪] 28 00:05:03,337 --> 00:05:14,728 [♪♪♪] 29 00:05:16,246 --> 00:05:25,566 [children chattering in background] 30 00:05:36,025 --> 00:05:46,000 [♪♪♪] 31 00:05:46,000 --> 00:05:55,976 [♪♪♪] 32 00:05:55,976 --> 00:06:08,920 [♪♪♪] 33 00:06:08,920 --> 00:06:13,787 I remember coming into a huge building. 34 00:06:13,787 --> 00:06:17,377 And I remember thesethings in black; 35 00:06:17,377 --> 00:06:20,276 I didn't know what they were. 36 00:06:20,276 --> 00:06:25,281 Black and white, and they were all waiting. 37 00:06:25,281 --> 00:06:36,223 [♪♪♪] 38 00:06:36,223 --> 00:06:39,813 I felt so small, and I was very scared. 39 00:06:39,813 --> 00:06:50,858 [♪♪♪] 40 00:06:50,858 --> 00:06:55,794 I remember being taken upstairs into this dormitory, 41 00:06:55,794 --> 00:07:00,558 where there was about four rows of beds on the one side 42 00:07:00,558 --> 00:07:03,871 and four rows of beds on the other side. 43 00:07:03,871 --> 00:07:06,391 And they were white beds, like hospital beds. 44 00:07:07,910 --> 00:07:10,499 This will be your bed. 45 00:07:12,259 --> 00:07:14,468 Your bed. 46 00:07:18,334 --> 00:07:20,819 Bed, sleep. 47 00:07:23,650 --> 00:07:25,341 Bring her to the shower. 48 00:07:25,341 --> 00:07:29,000 [footsteps] 49 00:07:30,346 --> 00:07:32,348 The savage doesn't believe that cleanliness 50 00:07:32,348 --> 00:07:34,592 is next to Godliness. 51 00:07:36,628 --> 00:07:40,114 When they get a cut or scrape, or even an insect bite, 52 00:07:40,114 --> 00:07:44,291 their mothers leave the wound to fester. 53 00:07:48,433 --> 00:07:50,608 Are you listening to me, Sister Mary? 54 00:07:50,608 --> 00:07:52,092 Yes, Sister. 55 00:07:54,784 --> 00:07:56,752 Lyna, is it Lyna? 56 00:07:56,752 --> 00:07:58,236 Lyna. 57 00:07:58,236 --> 00:07:59,479 Lyna. 58 00:08:01,239 --> 00:08:04,725 Sister Mary, whichever way it is, 59 00:08:04,725 --> 00:08:07,245 for now it no longer pertains. 60 00:08:10,559 --> 00:08:12,319 We'll have this disposed of. 61 00:08:12,319 --> 00:08:16,392 Now, let's give this one a good scrubbing. 62 00:08:18,049 --> 00:08:21,949 I remember being taken into a large shower room, 63 00:08:21,949 --> 00:08:27,265 where I was stripped down, and I was showered. 64 00:08:27,265 --> 00:08:31,787 I never had anybody but my mother touch me, 65 00:08:31,787 --> 00:08:34,514 so that was scary in itself, 66 00:08:34,514 --> 00:08:38,483 having someone I didn't know bathe me. 67 00:08:38,483 --> 00:08:41,382 They dried my hair, and they looked through my hair, 68 00:08:41,382 --> 00:08:45,145 and then they applied DDT. 69 00:08:45,145 --> 00:08:47,665 I didn't know at the time it was DDT, it was powder, 70 00:08:47,665 --> 00:08:49,770 and it really smelt terrible. 71 00:08:52,255 --> 00:08:55,362 Leave this kerchief on for 24 hours to kill the bugs. 72 00:08:55,362 --> 00:08:57,019 Does she understand this? 73 00:08:57,019 --> 00:08:59,021 She will. 74 00:08:59,021 --> 00:09:01,230 Leave this on. 75 00:09:05,199 --> 00:09:06,994 On. 76 00:09:06,994 --> 00:09:08,513 On? 77 00:09:08,513 --> 00:09:11,965 You see, Sister Mary, they learn fast when they want to. 78 00:09:11,965 --> 00:09:18,592 [♪♪♪] 79 00:09:18,592 --> 00:09:21,630 I remember the first night very well. 80 00:09:21,630 --> 00:09:24,805 We went upstairs, and I was taken to my bed. 81 00:09:24,805 --> 00:09:26,186 On your knees, girls. 82 00:09:26,186 --> 00:09:28,533 We had to kneel down again. 83 00:09:28,533 --> 00:09:31,122 On your knees, girls, quickly now, quickly. 84 00:09:33,089 --> 00:09:35,195 Heads down, eyes closed. 85 00:09:37,300 --> 00:09:40,683 Down, eyes closed. 86 00:09:43,272 --> 00:09:46,068 Our father...Girls: Our father... 87 00:09:46,068 --> 00:09:48,898 ...who art in heaven,Girls: ...who art in heaven, 88 00:09:48,898 --> 00:09:51,867 ...hallowed be thy name.Girls: ...hallowed be thy name. 89 00:09:51,867 --> 00:09:56,078 Thy kingdom come,thy will be done.Girls: Thy kingdom come, thy will be done. 90 00:09:56,078 --> 00:09:57,735 I didn't understand the language, 91 00:09:57,735 --> 00:10:00,116 and I just did what everybody else did. 92 00:10:00,116 --> 00:10:03,982 I would look to see what the rest of the girls were doing, 93 00:10:03,982 --> 00:10:06,260 and then follow them. 94 00:10:06,260 --> 00:10:08,228 Forever and ever.Girls: Forever and ever. 95 00:10:08,228 --> 00:10:10,471 Amen.Girls: Amen. 96 00:10:10,471 --> 00:10:17,755 [♪♪♪] 97 00:10:17,755 --> 00:10:20,171 No talking. 98 00:10:20,171 --> 00:10:24,347 No getting out of bed. 99 00:10:24,347 --> 00:10:29,283 Remember, Sister Mary can see you through the window. 100 00:10:31,700 --> 00:10:34,668 There was a Sister that was assigned to take care of us, 101 00:10:34,668 --> 00:10:38,327 and she stayed in a room close to the dorm. 102 00:10:38,327 --> 00:10:42,434 And there was a window, she would be able to see us through 103 00:10:42,434 --> 00:10:45,230 this window, so I feared that window. 104 00:10:48,613 --> 00:10:50,857 I cried myself to sleep that night. 105 00:10:52,582 --> 00:11:02,109 [bell ringing] 106 00:11:02,109 --> 00:11:06,355 [clacking] Good morning, girls, good morning, time to get up, 107 00:11:06,355 --> 00:11:09,047 right away, please, get up! [clacking] 108 00:11:09,047 --> 00:11:10,911 Good morning, get up, please. 109 00:11:10,911 --> 00:11:13,880 When I woke up, my eyes were swollen, 110 00:11:13,880 --> 00:11:16,503 and I could hardly open them. 111 00:11:16,503 --> 00:11:19,679 They had these two wooden, they called them clackers, 112 00:11:19,679 --> 00:11:23,061 and they'd clack them together. 113 00:11:23,061 --> 00:11:26,616 Up, out of bed, come on, please, out of bed. 114 00:11:27,721 --> 00:11:31,276 Twenty-four hours after they had put the powder on my hair, 115 00:11:31,276 --> 00:11:33,762 the yellow powder, I had to go back in the shower, 116 00:11:33,762 --> 00:11:36,972 and wash it out. 117 00:11:36,972 --> 00:11:40,423 [water splashing] 118 00:11:40,423 --> 00:11:44,738 They dried my hair again, and I had to go sit on this chair. 119 00:11:46,602 --> 00:11:49,467 I remember feeling the cold scissors on my hair, 120 00:11:49,467 --> 00:11:51,676 and sometimes kind of hitting me on the head 121 00:11:51,676 --> 00:11:53,747 or nicking me in the ear. 122 00:11:53,747 --> 00:11:56,888 It hurt, it was painful. 123 00:11:56,888 --> 00:12:02,480 I felt that they were taking something away from me. 124 00:12:02,480 --> 00:12:07,312 They were stripping away my humanness, 125 00:12:07,312 --> 00:12:10,522 my sense of who I was. 126 00:12:10,522 --> 00:12:21,948 [♪♪♪] [snipping] 127 00:12:21,948 --> 00:12:25,779 [♪♪♪] 128 00:12:25,779 --> 00:12:29,921 There we are, a brand new start. 129 00:12:29,921 --> 00:12:34,719 [♪♪♪] 130 00:12:34,719 --> 00:12:36,859 Soon you'll be playing with the other children. 131 00:12:36,859 --> 00:12:46,835 [♪♪♪] 132 00:12:46,835 --> 00:12:56,810 [♪♪♪] 133 00:12:56,810 --> 00:13:12,101 [♪♪♪] 134 00:13:12,101 --> 00:13:15,208 We had to go down the long hallway into the dining room, 135 00:13:15,208 --> 00:13:18,038 and I remember seeing tables and tables 136 00:13:18,038 --> 00:13:20,006 with chairs around them. 137 00:13:20,006 --> 00:13:29,981 [♪♪♪] 138 00:13:29,981 --> 00:13:37,989 [♪♪♪] 139 00:13:37,989 --> 00:13:47,757 You see, 99, that's you, 99, this is your chair. 140 00:13:47,757 --> 00:13:52,141 This is your bowl, spoon, 99. 141 00:13:55,144 --> 00:14:01,081 I learnt that the name Lyna ceased to exist. 142 00:14:01,081 --> 00:14:05,914 [♪♪♪] 143 00:14:09,434 --> 00:14:15,889 [children chattering in background] 144 00:14:15,889 --> 00:14:17,891 We were all given numbers. 145 00:14:17,891 --> 00:14:20,204 It started with the bigger boys, they were number one all 146 00:14:20,204 --> 00:14:24,242 the way to, I think there was about 120 of us. 147 00:14:24,242 --> 00:14:29,523 But I always remember when Ifirst went there, I was 118. 148 00:14:29,523 --> 00:14:32,354 [laughs] Yeah. 149 00:14:34,977 --> 00:14:38,981 You used to get lonely 'cause you come to realize that 150 00:14:38,981 --> 00:14:44,849 it wasn't the place you thought it was, and away from home. 151 00:14:46,333 --> 00:14:49,923 [♪♪♪] 152 00:14:49,923 --> 00:14:52,684 [bell ringing] 153 00:14:52,684 --> 00:14:54,548 Our people thought that 154 00:14:54,548 --> 00:14:57,137 the government would build a school on the Reserve, 155 00:14:57,137 --> 00:15:00,830 but they went a different route, they built these schools away 156 00:15:00,830 --> 00:15:03,626 from the Reserve, and run by the churches, 157 00:15:03,626 --> 00:15:07,976 and it was kind of a catch-22 situation. 158 00:15:07,976 --> 00:15:10,426 If you didn't send your kids to school, 159 00:15:10,426 --> 00:15:12,670 they threatened you with jail. 160 00:15:12,670 --> 00:15:22,542 [♪♪♪] 161 00:15:22,542 --> 00:15:24,716 What is your name? 162 00:15:24,716 --> 00:15:26,822 Children: What is your name? 163 00:15:30,274 --> 00:15:32,517 My name is. 164 00:15:32,517 --> 00:15:34,692 Children: My name is. 165 00:15:42,527 --> 00:15:44,529 [speaking French] 166 00:15:47,532 --> 00:15:50,570 We were punished in school if we spoke our own language. 167 00:15:50,570 --> 00:15:54,746 When I first went to school, I had to learn English and French. 168 00:15:55,989 --> 00:15:57,818 [speaking French] 169 00:16:01,926 --> 00:16:05,481 I used to wonder, well how come they spoke French and English. 170 00:16:05,481 --> 00:16:07,932 We didn't understand them, and how come they could speak 171 00:16:07,932 --> 00:16:10,314 French, and us, we couldn't speak our language? 172 00:16:11,108 --> 00:16:13,558 [speaking Indian] 173 00:16:13,558 --> 00:16:16,561 And just to be hateful, I'd speak in Indian back to her. 174 00:16:16,561 --> 00:16:18,184 [speaking French] 175 00:16:20,186 --> 00:16:22,188 [speaking Indian] 176 00:16:22,188 --> 00:16:25,294 [speaking French] 177 00:16:25,294 --> 00:16:27,538 And then she'd be getting mad, started talking in French, 178 00:16:27,538 --> 00:16:33,233 and I'd talk back in Indian, and oh, it really drove them crazy. 179 00:16:35,028 --> 00:16:37,203 [speaking Indian] 180 00:16:37,203 --> 00:16:39,550 But you know you paid the price. 181 00:16:55,807 --> 00:16:56,843 [smack] 182 00:16:59,397 --> 00:17:01,227 [speaking French] 183 00:17:01,227 --> 00:17:03,194 [speaking Indian] 184 00:17:07,474 --> 00:17:12,652 You will learn to speak God's language - all of you! 185 00:17:15,689 --> 00:17:18,416 And you will obey. 186 00:17:18,416 --> 00:17:24,802 [smacking] 187 00:17:29,358 --> 00:17:33,983 We still tried, and eventually you get beaten enough you quit. 188 00:17:35,261 --> 00:17:43,062 [bell ringing] 189 00:17:43,062 --> 00:17:45,961 I think we'd wake up at 6 o'clock in the morning, 190 00:17:45,961 --> 00:17:49,275 and then we'd get dressed. 191 00:17:49,275 --> 00:17:52,657 I remember, you know, going to the sink and getting ready, 192 00:17:52,657 --> 00:17:55,522 washing our face, our hands. 193 00:17:55,522 --> 00:17:59,595 I remember the girl beside me always washing her face so many 194 00:17:59,595 --> 00:18:06,085 times and her hands, and wondering why she was doing 195 00:18:06,085 --> 00:18:08,673 that, so I whispered to her I said - 196 00:18:08,673 --> 00:18:11,469 [speaking Indian] 197 00:18:13,195 --> 00:18:15,301 [speaking Indian] 198 00:18:17,855 --> 00:18:20,029 See, you're dirty. 199 00:18:20,029 --> 00:18:22,825 And so she did a comparison with my hand and her hand, 200 00:18:22,825 --> 00:18:25,932 and she was fairer than I was, and I was dark, 201 00:18:25,932 --> 00:18:28,037 and she said that means you're dirty, 202 00:18:28,037 --> 00:18:30,730 and I looked at my hands and I thought, well, 203 00:18:30,730 --> 00:18:33,491 I guess I better wash them. 204 00:18:33,491 --> 00:18:35,838 And speak English, English. 205 00:18:46,090 --> 00:18:47,954 For thine is the kingdom, 206 00:18:47,954 --> 00:18:50,301 Children: For thine is the kingdom, 207 00:18:50,301 --> 00:18:52,234 The power and the glory, 208 00:18:52,234 --> 00:18:54,167 Children: The power and the glory, 209 00:18:54,167 --> 00:18:55,513 Forever and ever. 210 00:18:55,513 --> 00:18:57,066 Children: Forever and ever. 211 00:18:57,066 --> 00:18:58,516 Amen. 212 00:18:58,516 --> 00:18:59,966 Children: Amen. 213 00:19:01,105 --> 00:19:03,797 For those of you who are new to the school, welcome. 214 00:19:05,627 --> 00:19:09,769 [speaking Indian] 215 00:19:09,769 --> 00:19:11,564 Your journey has been long. 216 00:19:11,564 --> 00:19:12,944 You're missing your parents. 217 00:19:12,944 --> 00:19:14,394 [speaking Indian] 218 00:19:14,394 --> 00:19:17,328 Rest assured, they want you to be here. 219 00:19:17,328 --> 00:19:20,469 They want you to learn to become useful, 220 00:19:20,469 --> 00:19:23,162 productive members of the larger world around you. 221 00:19:23,162 --> 00:19:28,236 You will not only learn how to cook and sew and farm, 222 00:19:28,236 --> 00:19:33,102 but you will learn how to pray, and to whom to pray. 223 00:19:33,102 --> 00:19:38,177 [speaking Indian] 224 00:19:39,626 --> 00:19:45,184 The savage and carefree ways you are accustomed to are over. 225 00:19:45,184 --> 00:19:50,361 Your old world is dying, but we in the civilized world want to 226 00:19:50,361 --> 00:19:52,743 save you from certain death. 227 00:19:52,743 --> 00:19:57,126 We welcome you here with open arms, open hearts, 228 00:19:57,126 --> 00:19:59,198 and open minds. 229 00:20:01,441 --> 00:20:04,375 This is the last time you will hear your own language. 230 00:20:04,375 --> 00:20:06,688 To be understood in this country, 231 00:20:06,688 --> 00:20:11,140 to survive in its industries, you will learn to speak English, 232 00:20:11,140 --> 00:20:13,764 you will learn to think in English, 233 00:20:13,764 --> 00:20:15,904 and you will be the better for it. 234 00:20:18,147 --> 00:20:20,667 You may thank me. 235 00:20:20,667 --> 00:20:23,463 Children: Thank you, Father. 236 00:20:23,463 --> 00:20:26,052 Very good. 237 00:20:26,052 --> 00:20:28,641 That is the end of our service. 238 00:20:28,641 --> 00:20:30,436 You may go. 239 00:20:30,436 --> 00:20:32,783 Follow the Sister in an orderly way. 240 00:20:34,025 --> 00:20:36,200 First row, please, quickly and quietly. 241 00:20:38,167 --> 00:20:39,514 Very good. 242 00:20:41,205 --> 00:20:43,414 Second row, quickly, please, quickly. 243 00:20:46,693 --> 00:20:48,281 Come on now. 244 00:20:49,869 --> 00:20:51,319 Now please. 245 00:20:51,319 --> 00:20:56,427 [♪♪♪] 246 00:20:57,946 --> 00:21:00,397 Quickly, children, find your seats, please. 247 00:21:00,397 --> 00:21:02,951 Nice and quiet. 248 00:21:02,951 --> 00:21:12,029 [footsteps] 249 00:21:12,029 --> 00:21:14,411 The very first thing that I recall is that 250 00:21:14,411 --> 00:21:17,068 we were given 10 tokens. 251 00:21:17,897 --> 00:21:20,589 These tokens are for you. 252 00:21:22,350 --> 00:21:24,144 They are for you to keep. 253 00:21:25,870 --> 00:21:29,771 You keep them by speaking English. 254 00:21:29,771 --> 00:21:35,846 Every time you speak your own language, you lose a token. 255 00:21:37,226 --> 00:21:41,472 If we kept the 10 tokens, that meant that, you know, 256 00:21:41,472 --> 00:21:44,855 we knew English, and that we could communicate in English. 257 00:21:46,650 --> 00:21:48,445 English only. 258 00:21:52,483 --> 00:21:56,729 I remember, I guess being in a state of shock... 259 00:22:03,977 --> 00:22:12,123 ...wondering, you know, what I was doing there, and why. 260 00:22:12,123 --> 00:22:16,196 No one was allowed to touch each other or to talk to each other. 261 00:22:23,825 --> 00:22:25,861 [tapping] 262 00:22:25,861 --> 00:22:28,933 Who made the world? 263 00:22:28,933 --> 00:22:32,834 God made the world.Children: God made the world. 264 00:22:32,834 --> 00:22:35,940 Who is God? 265 00:22:35,940 --> 00:22:39,944 God is the creator of heaven and earth, and of all things. 266 00:22:39,944 --> 00:22:44,052 Children: God is the creator of heaven and earth, and of all things. 267 00:22:44,052 --> 00:22:47,607 What is man? 268 00:22:47,607 --> 00:22:52,854 Man is a creaturemade of body and soul.Children: Man is a creature made of body and soul. 269 00:22:52,854 --> 00:22:56,340 Sister Mary, what is the point of teaching the catechism 270 00:22:56,340 --> 00:22:59,378 if your students refuse to speak English? 271 00:22:59,378 --> 00:23:01,656 They are trying, Sister. 272 00:23:01,656 --> 00:23:04,348 They are doing nothing of the kind. 273 00:23:04,348 --> 00:23:12,977 Child...99, stand up. 274 00:23:12,977 --> 00:23:14,910 Stand up! 275 00:23:19,708 --> 00:23:21,054 Who made the world? 276 00:23:23,885 --> 00:23:26,750 Who made the world? 277 00:23:26,750 --> 00:23:29,373 [speaking Indian] 278 00:23:29,373 --> 00:23:31,548 There, you see. 279 00:23:35,275 --> 00:23:38,278 This child has very few of her tokens left. 280 00:23:38,278 --> 00:23:41,005 I am trying to reach them. 281 00:23:41,005 --> 00:23:43,974 Reach them, Sister Mary, it is not we who must reach them 282 00:23:43,974 --> 00:23:45,872 but the other way around. 283 00:23:45,872 --> 00:23:48,634 If you coddle these children, you do no one any good. 284 00:23:50,705 --> 00:23:53,086 On the floor, all of you. 285 00:23:53,086 --> 00:23:56,193 On your knees, with your rosaries. 286 00:23:59,196 --> 00:24:01,647 The Apostles' Creed, begin. 287 00:24:02,855 --> 00:24:08,136 I believe in God,the Father almighty,Children: I believe in God, the Father almighty, 288 00:24:08,136 --> 00:24:10,690 Creator ofheaven and earth.Children: Creator of heaven and earth. 289 00:24:10,690 --> 00:24:13,348 Look straight ahead! 290 00:24:13,348 --> 00:24:19,009 Creator ofheaven and earth.Children: Creator of heaven and earth. 291 00:24:19,009 --> 00:24:21,563 Look forward, I say, forward! 292 00:24:21,563 --> 00:24:25,671 I believe in Jesus Christ,his only son, our Lord.Children: I believe in Jesus Christ, his only son, our Lord. 293 00:24:25,671 --> 00:24:28,087 I believe in Jesus Christ. 294 00:24:34,162 --> 00:24:36,889 One of the punishments for speaking our language and 295 00:24:36,889 --> 00:24:41,963 losing all our tokens was to hold your tongue. 296 00:24:41,963 --> 00:24:46,139 Sometimes you had to hold your tongue for about half an hour. 297 00:24:46,139 --> 00:24:49,936 And if you let it go, then it was another half an hour added 298 00:24:49,936 --> 00:24:53,388 onto it, so you're holding onto your tongue for an hour, 299 00:24:53,388 --> 00:24:56,356 and then, you know, your spit would be running down your, 300 00:24:56,356 --> 00:24:59,498 your face. 301 00:24:59,498 --> 00:25:04,261 [♪♪♪] 302 00:25:04,261 --> 00:25:13,235 I used my imagination a lot...to feel safe... 303 00:25:13,235 --> 00:25:21,520 'cause it was tucked away somewhere that an adult 304 00:25:21,520 --> 00:25:27,387 could not go, where I knew they could not see, 305 00:25:27,387 --> 00:25:32,013 where they could not feel, or they could not hear what was 306 00:25:32,013 --> 00:25:33,704 going on in there. 307 00:25:33,704 --> 00:25:39,399 [♪♪♪] 308 00:25:39,399 --> 00:25:41,574 I retreated there a lot. 309 00:25:41,574 --> 00:25:50,687 [♪♪♪] 310 00:25:54,691 --> 00:26:04,735 [children chatteringin background] 311 00:26:04,735 --> 00:26:12,260 [children chattering in background] 312 00:26:12,260 --> 00:26:15,366 You, get back here! 313 00:26:15,366 --> 00:26:28,552 [children chattering in background] 314 00:26:28,552 --> 00:26:32,245 Hey, they couldn't see me from back there. 315 00:26:32,245 --> 00:26:35,421 That's the road to Fort Qu'Appelle. 316 00:26:35,421 --> 00:26:44,982 [children chattering in background] 317 00:26:44,982 --> 00:26:57,719 [♪♪♪] 318 00:26:57,719 --> 00:27:00,032 [door creaking] 319 00:27:00,032 --> 00:27:10,076 [♪♪♪] 320 00:27:10,076 --> 00:27:20,052 [♪♪♪] 321 00:27:20,052 --> 00:27:35,377 [♪♪♪] 322 00:27:52,774 --> 00:27:54,673 Come with me. 323 00:27:54,673 --> 00:28:04,717 [♪♪♪] 324 00:28:04,717 --> 00:28:13,139 [♪♪♪] 325 00:28:13,139 --> 00:28:17,661 I remember telling my Aunt one time about that, and she said, 326 00:28:17,661 --> 00:28:21,354 "No," she told me not to tell lies. 327 00:28:21,354 --> 00:28:24,357 "Priests don't do that, they wouldn't do that," she said. 328 00:28:24,357 --> 00:28:29,984 [♪♪♪] 329 00:28:29,984 --> 00:28:31,744 Nobody believed. 330 00:28:31,744 --> 00:28:36,197 [♪♪♪] 331 00:28:36,197 --> 00:28:37,750 Man, that was a wicked game. 332 00:28:37,750 --> 00:28:39,752 Remember that was crazy one time. 333 00:28:39,752 --> 00:28:41,512 Yeah. 334 00:28:41,512 --> 00:28:43,066 Hey, Glen, there's your cousin. 335 00:28:45,482 --> 00:28:47,104 Hey! 336 00:28:52,282 --> 00:28:53,835 Where are you going? 337 00:28:53,835 --> 00:28:55,423 Home. 338 00:28:55,423 --> 00:28:57,287 For good? 339 00:28:57,287 --> 00:29:00,117 Just to visit, see my folks. 340 00:29:00,117 --> 00:29:04,743 [♪♪♪] 341 00:29:04,743 --> 00:29:07,021 I was raised by my grandfather. 342 00:29:07,021 --> 00:29:12,198 I always kind of, like, envied other kids who had parents 343 00:29:12,198 --> 00:29:14,891 'cause I never got to experience that. 344 00:29:14,891 --> 00:29:25,418 [♪♪♪] 345 00:29:25,418 --> 00:29:27,835 And I wondered, how come they never took me home? 346 00:29:27,835 --> 00:29:37,810 [♪♪♪] 347 00:29:37,810 --> 00:29:47,095 [♪♪♪] 348 00:29:47,095 --> 00:29:51,444 I asked if I could go home, so they said, 349 00:29:51,444 --> 00:29:53,964 "Okay, we'll take you home." 350 00:29:53,964 --> 00:29:55,966 How long you going for? 351 00:29:55,966 --> 00:29:57,657 A whole week. 352 00:29:57,657 --> 00:30:00,902 Gonna sleep in my own bed, gonna eat my own food. 353 00:30:00,902 --> 00:30:02,421 Bring some back for us. 354 00:30:02,421 --> 00:30:03,663 I will. 355 00:30:06,011 --> 00:30:07,460 You ready, Glen? 356 00:30:13,881 --> 00:30:23,856 [♪♪♪] 357 00:30:23,856 --> 00:30:29,344 [♪♪♪] 358 00:30:29,344 --> 00:30:30,932 Are you excited? 359 00:30:30,932 --> 00:30:32,416 Uh-huh. 360 00:30:35,592 --> 00:30:37,214 I just started up the truck. 361 00:30:37,214 --> 00:30:40,321 We'll go inside while it warms up. 362 00:30:40,321 --> 00:30:46,154 [♪♪♪] 363 00:30:46,154 --> 00:30:49,192 By the school there used to be a building, 364 00:30:49,192 --> 00:30:52,816 a house they called the priest's house, where the priest stayed. 365 00:30:52,816 --> 00:31:02,861 [♪♪♪] 366 00:31:02,861 --> 00:31:09,971 [♪♪♪] 367 00:31:09,971 --> 00:31:13,941 This is an old house, and a lot of secrets. 368 00:31:21,327 --> 00:31:23,329 Do you like secrets? 369 00:31:23,329 --> 00:31:25,124 I knew it. 370 00:31:29,059 --> 00:31:30,647 [snap] 371 00:31:36,825 --> 00:31:43,660 [♪♪♪] 372 00:31:43,660 --> 00:31:47,698 Now, Glen, see what I mean. 373 00:31:47,698 --> 00:31:50,701 What do you suppose is down there? 374 00:31:50,701 --> 00:31:53,256 Would you like to find out? 375 00:31:55,085 --> 00:31:56,984 I want to go. 376 00:31:56,984 --> 00:31:58,882 Of course, of course. 377 00:31:58,882 --> 00:32:00,677 But look. 378 00:32:02,644 --> 00:32:04,992 He pulled the rug open, and there was a trapdoor. 379 00:32:04,992 --> 00:32:09,203 [♪♪♪] 380 00:32:09,203 --> 00:32:10,825 Take a look. 381 00:32:10,825 --> 00:32:14,794 [♪♪♪] 382 00:32:14,794 --> 00:32:18,522 So, I crawled down 'cause I wanted to go home, 383 00:32:18,522 --> 00:32:23,493 but I wanted to also, like, see what he wanted to show me. 384 00:32:23,493 --> 00:32:28,532 [♪♪♪] 385 00:32:28,532 --> 00:32:31,052 Come on, come on. 386 00:32:31,052 --> 00:32:41,028 [♪♪♪] 387 00:32:41,028 --> 00:32:51,003 [♪♪♪] 388 00:32:51,003 --> 00:33:01,013 [♪♪♪] 389 00:33:01,013 --> 00:33:03,878 There's two doors. 390 00:33:03,878 --> 00:33:08,710 And he opened up the one door, and told me... 391 00:33:08,710 --> 00:33:10,816 "Look, go on, look." 392 00:33:12,300 --> 00:33:13,612 ...go look. 393 00:33:15,303 --> 00:33:17,029 Hey! 394 00:33:17,029 --> 00:33:18,479 [bang] 395 00:33:18,479 --> 00:33:20,101 Hey! [banging] 396 00:33:20,101 --> 00:33:22,103 Wait, let me out! [banging] 397 00:33:22,103 --> 00:33:24,278 Let me out! Let me out! [banging] 398 00:33:24,278 --> 00:33:26,763 Please, what did I do? [banging] 399 00:33:26,763 --> 00:33:31,802 [banging] 400 00:33:31,802 --> 00:33:33,494 Let me out! [banging] 401 00:33:33,494 --> 00:33:36,842 I was banging on the door, yelling at him to let me out. 402 00:33:36,842 --> 00:33:40,052 I wanted to go home. 403 00:33:40,052 --> 00:33:42,951 But nobody answered. 404 00:33:42,951 --> 00:33:49,165 [banging] 405 00:33:49,165 --> 00:33:50,890 Let me out! 406 00:33:50,890 --> 00:33:54,480 [banging] 407 00:33:54,480 --> 00:33:56,241 What did I do? 408 00:33:56,241 --> 00:33:58,001 Let me out! 409 00:33:58,001 --> 00:34:08,046 [♪♪♪] 410 00:34:08,046 --> 00:34:18,021 [♪♪♪] 411 00:34:18,021 --> 00:34:25,822 [♪♪♪] 412 00:34:25,822 --> 00:34:33,174 Did you ever sometimes feel, like, silence? 413 00:34:33,174 --> 00:34:36,108 It really is deafening. 414 00:34:36,108 --> 00:34:41,976 [sobbing] 415 00:34:41,976 --> 00:34:45,359 Crawl in the corner, crouched up in the foetal 416 00:34:45,359 --> 00:34:49,087 position I guess you might say, and sit there, 417 00:34:49,087 --> 00:34:52,952 and just hear dead silence. 418 00:34:52,952 --> 00:34:59,373 I'd cry, wondering how come they did that to me. 419 00:35:05,206 --> 00:35:08,347 [♪♪♪] 420 00:35:08,347 --> 00:35:10,970 There was a huge map on the wall, 421 00:35:10,970 --> 00:35:14,181 and this map had different paths. 422 00:35:16,562 --> 00:35:20,566 At the bottom there was hell, in the middle there was purgatory, 423 00:35:20,566 --> 00:35:23,466 and high above the map... 424 00:35:23,466 --> 00:35:25,053 Heaven. 425 00:35:25,053 --> 00:35:26,952 That's where we want to get to. 426 00:35:26,952 --> 00:35:28,712 Do you see? 427 00:35:28,712 --> 00:35:31,025 'Cause we started down here. 428 00:35:31,025 --> 00:35:34,339 [♪♪♪] 429 00:35:34,339 --> 00:35:37,411 That's where our ancestors all went because they were savages. 430 00:35:39,654 --> 00:35:42,623 But not us, we're not dirty like them. 431 00:35:42,623 --> 00:35:45,522 We're not gonna burn in hell. 432 00:35:45,522 --> 00:35:52,495 [♪♪♪] 433 00:35:52,495 --> 00:35:56,844 I didn't want to go to heaven; I wanted to stay in hell 434 00:35:56,844 --> 00:36:00,261 because I knew my people would be there. 435 00:36:01,780 --> 00:36:04,092 Come on, come on. 436 00:36:06,371 --> 00:36:08,925 I was quite chubby when I went to school. 437 00:36:08,925 --> 00:36:12,377 I lost a lot of weight. 438 00:36:12,377 --> 00:36:14,827 I didn't want to eat. 439 00:36:14,827 --> 00:36:19,901 I was starving myself because I couldn't get used to the food, 440 00:36:19,901 --> 00:36:22,283 I couldn't tolerate the food. 441 00:36:22,283 --> 00:36:25,700 I wasn't used to the porridge that was like glue, 442 00:36:25,700 --> 00:36:29,359 powdered milk that was made into milk. 443 00:36:29,359 --> 00:36:33,018 My body was used to food that was totally natural, 444 00:36:33,018 --> 00:36:37,643 like moose meat and berries. 445 00:36:37,643 --> 00:36:40,922 [♪♪♪] 446 00:36:40,922 --> 00:36:46,169 ♪♪♪ W, X, Y, and Z. 447 00:36:46,169 --> 00:36:56,317 ♪ Now I know my ABC's, next time won't you sing with me. ♪♪ 448 00:36:56,317 --> 00:36:57,525 Very good. 449 00:36:57,525 --> 00:37:00,494 Now...stay in your seats. 450 00:37:00,494 --> 00:37:04,601 [♪♪♪] 451 00:37:04,601 --> 00:37:06,534 Fetch the principle. 452 00:37:06,534 --> 00:37:08,156 Run! 453 00:37:08,156 --> 00:37:13,231 [♪♪♪] 454 00:37:13,231 --> 00:37:18,477 They sent me to the infirmary, and I remember being alone, 455 00:37:18,477 --> 00:37:23,482 and there the nurse force-fed me, 456 00:37:23,482 --> 00:37:26,830 trying to get some energy and strength in me. 457 00:37:32,353 --> 00:37:34,079 This is the food you have. 458 00:37:34,079 --> 00:37:35,839 You will learn to eat it or you'll die. 459 00:37:35,839 --> 00:37:37,979 It makes no difference to me what you choose. 460 00:37:37,979 --> 00:37:41,707 [♪♪♪] 461 00:37:41,707 --> 00:37:43,709 She'd tell me you have to eat. 462 00:37:43,709 --> 00:37:45,953 I couldn't. 463 00:37:45,953 --> 00:37:55,928 [♪♪♪] 464 00:37:55,928 --> 00:38:01,209 [♪♪♪] 465 00:38:01,209 --> 00:38:05,075 I remember one night in particular being very curious 466 00:38:05,075 --> 00:38:11,012 as to why I heard a lot of crying down the hallway. 467 00:38:13,670 --> 00:38:16,363 The nurse was not there all the time. 468 00:38:16,363 --> 00:38:26,338 [♪♪♪] [sobbing] 469 00:38:26,338 --> 00:38:36,314 [♪♪♪] [sobbing] 470 00:38:36,314 --> 00:38:56,195 [♪♪♪] [sobbing] 471 00:38:56,195 --> 00:39:00,855 I remember this great big, huge black thing. 472 00:39:00,855 --> 00:39:04,100 And all the boys were sitting up in bed, crying. 473 00:39:07,793 --> 00:39:13,005 And the light from the exit sign went bouncing off the face 474 00:39:13,005 --> 00:39:15,698 of this priest. 475 00:39:15,698 --> 00:39:19,736 [♪♪♪] [sobbing] 476 00:39:19,736 --> 00:39:28,607 And wondering why the boy was naked, bent over. 477 00:39:29,677 --> 00:39:31,541 Close the door! 478 00:39:31,541 --> 00:39:33,612 Go! 479 00:39:33,612 --> 00:39:42,276 [♪♪♪] [sobbing] 480 00:39:42,276 --> 00:39:46,487 I was really scared, and I knew something really bad happened, 481 00:39:46,487 --> 00:39:48,524 but I didn't know what it was. 482 00:39:48,524 --> 00:39:58,499 [♪♪♪] 483 00:39:58,499 --> 00:40:12,651 [♪♪♪] 484 00:40:14,066 --> 00:40:17,104 [dogs barking in distance] 485 00:40:23,317 --> 00:40:33,292 [♪♪♪] 486 00:40:33,292 --> 00:40:43,268 [♪♪♪] 487 00:40:43,268 --> 00:40:52,139 [♪♪♪] 488 00:40:52,139 --> 00:40:53,830 Can I go now? 489 00:40:57,972 --> 00:40:59,249 [bang] 490 00:40:59,249 --> 00:41:01,424 Don't leave me here, please! 491 00:41:01,424 --> 00:41:04,496 Why am I here, why? 492 00:41:04,496 --> 00:41:07,465 What did I do? 493 00:41:07,465 --> 00:41:10,468 Take me home! 494 00:41:10,468 --> 00:41:16,094 Please! Please! [banging] 495 00:41:16,094 --> 00:41:26,069 [♪♪♪] 496 00:41:26,069 --> 00:41:36,045 [♪♪♪] 497 00:41:36,045 --> 00:41:48,367 [♪♪♪] 498 00:41:48,367 --> 00:41:50,508 There was a girl in there. 499 00:41:50,508 --> 00:41:54,028 [sobbing] 500 00:41:54,028 --> 00:41:58,170 And it seemed like two persons that go in that girl's room, 501 00:41:58,170 --> 00:41:59,965 where that girl was. 502 00:41:59,965 --> 00:42:10,079 [♪♪♪] [sobbing] 503 00:42:10,079 --> 00:42:19,122 [♪♪♪] 504 00:42:19,122 --> 00:42:20,814 I don't know how much time passed, 505 00:42:20,814 --> 00:42:24,611 but after awhile they'd be gone. 506 00:42:24,611 --> 00:42:27,717 I hear the door closing, and I hear her crying, crying, 507 00:42:27,717 --> 00:42:31,410 and I heard a tap. 508 00:42:31,410 --> 00:42:35,449 [tapping] 509 00:42:35,449 --> 00:42:38,521 And I listened, I tapped back. 510 00:42:38,521 --> 00:42:42,283 [tapping] 511 00:42:42,283 --> 00:42:45,286 Made me feel good in the sense that I wasn't the only one 512 00:42:45,286 --> 00:42:47,323 down there all by myself. 513 00:42:47,323 --> 00:43:01,095 [♪♪♪] 514 00:43:04,927 --> 00:43:13,314 [birdsong] 515 00:43:27,535 --> 00:43:29,710 How did we sleep last night? 516 00:43:29,710 --> 00:43:33,058 Porridge for you, and believe you me, you're going to eat it. 517 00:43:41,480 --> 00:43:43,344 [speaking Indian] 518 00:43:48,039 --> 00:43:51,145 Now you know you're not to speak that language. 519 00:43:55,218 --> 00:43:57,013 [speaking Indian] 520 00:43:59,429 --> 00:44:01,328 Stop it! 521 00:44:01,328 --> 00:44:04,434 Even if you were allowed to speak your nonsense, 522 00:44:04,434 --> 00:44:08,093 I wouldn't be able to understand a word of it. 523 00:44:08,093 --> 00:44:12,615 Now, are you going to eat or not? 524 00:44:12,615 --> 00:44:17,447 A man, I see in boy's room. 525 00:44:21,037 --> 00:44:27,009 A man, boy cry. 526 00:44:27,009 --> 00:44:29,597 Can't understand a word of it. 527 00:44:29,597 --> 00:44:31,945 Boy cry. 528 00:44:31,945 --> 00:44:33,291 Eat your breakfast! 529 00:44:33,291 --> 00:44:35,431 All boys cry. 530 00:44:35,431 --> 00:44:39,331 Eat or starve, damn you. [smack] 531 00:44:39,331 --> 00:44:41,126 Eat! 532 00:44:41,126 --> 00:44:49,721 [♪♪♪] 533 00:44:49,721 --> 00:44:54,346 And then I feared her, so I kept it inside. 534 00:44:58,903 --> 00:45:01,733 I went through the whole day in the infirmary. 535 00:45:06,393 --> 00:45:08,913 And then night came. 536 00:45:08,913 --> 00:45:21,753 [♪♪♪] 537 00:45:21,753 --> 00:45:31,694 [♪♪♪] [footsteps] 538 00:45:31,694 --> 00:45:34,041 I could hear the steps coming towards the girl's infirmary, 539 00:45:34,041 --> 00:45:36,078 and I was the only one in there. 540 00:45:36,078 --> 00:45:46,053 [♪♪♪] [footsteps] 541 00:45:46,053 --> 00:45:56,029 [♪♪♪] [footsteps] 542 00:45:56,029 --> 00:46:02,242 [♪♪♪] [footsteps] 543 00:46:02,242 --> 00:46:05,521 And then I couldn't breathe. 544 00:46:05,521 --> 00:46:11,113 I was flipped over, and I felt a hand clamp my mouth 545 00:46:11,113 --> 00:46:14,081 [muffled scream] and I could smell tobacco. 546 00:46:17,395 --> 00:46:20,018 I remember gagging. 547 00:46:23,125 --> 00:46:25,230 I remember a lot of pain. 548 00:46:25,230 --> 00:46:36,863 [♪♪♪] 549 00:46:36,863 --> 00:46:43,248 So that's the reason why I escaped to there... 550 00:46:43,248 --> 00:46:49,634 to that place where I'd be safe. 551 00:46:49,634 --> 00:46:59,609 [♪♪♪] 552 00:46:59,609 --> 00:47:12,174 [♪♪♪] 553 00:47:12,174 --> 00:47:16,454 When I was in that special place, 554 00:47:16,454 --> 00:47:19,284 that's where I found peace. 555 00:47:19,284 --> 00:47:30,123 [♪♪♪] 556 00:47:30,123 --> 00:47:38,786 I think about it now, and I think to myself that 557 00:47:38,786 --> 00:47:44,482 I'm not the only one that experienced this, the rape. 558 00:47:44,482 --> 00:47:51,489 A lot of, a lot of children in that school were raped, 559 00:47:51,489 --> 00:47:54,975 sexually abused by this priest. 560 00:47:59,877 --> 00:48:04,226 That priest later died before I left Residential school, 561 00:48:04,226 --> 00:48:07,470 and I felt peace. 562 00:48:10,542 --> 00:48:13,994 I remember that when they told us that he was gone, 563 00:48:13,994 --> 00:48:19,551 it was just like there was a load that was lifted, 564 00:48:19,551 --> 00:48:27,870 and I didn't have to worry anymore about the rest of 565 00:48:27,870 --> 00:48:32,530 the boys or girls being raped in the infirmary, 566 00:48:32,530 --> 00:48:35,533 which was supposed to be a place where we went to heal. 567 00:48:35,533 --> 00:48:42,160 [♪♪♪] 568 00:48:42,160 --> 00:48:48,477 When I heard that he had died, I just wanted to dance and laugh, 569 00:48:48,477 --> 00:48:55,863 and I knew I couldn't, but I did it in that special place. 570 00:48:55,863 --> 00:49:04,803 [♪♪♪] 571 00:49:05,873 --> 00:49:13,985 [♪♪♪] [sobbing] 572 00:49:13,985 --> 00:49:16,401 [door creaking] 573 00:49:16,401 --> 00:49:21,027 [♪♪♪] [footsteps] 574 00:49:21,027 --> 00:49:23,615 I don't know how much time passed. 575 00:49:23,615 --> 00:49:26,964 It seemed like I was in there forever. 576 00:49:26,964 --> 00:49:28,586 [♪♪♪] 577 00:49:28,586 --> 00:49:30,795 [door creaking] 578 00:49:30,795 --> 00:49:35,075 [♪♪♪] 579 00:49:35,075 --> 00:49:36,835 [speaking French] 580 00:49:36,835 --> 00:49:39,631 Then this nun came. 581 00:49:39,631 --> 00:49:41,495 [speaking French] 582 00:49:48,295 --> 00:49:52,575 She's telling me not to cry, trying to comfort me. 583 00:49:52,575 --> 00:50:02,551 [♪♪♪] 584 00:50:02,551 --> 00:50:07,694 [♪♪♪] 585 00:50:07,694 --> 00:50:09,558 [speaking French] 586 00:50:10,904 --> 00:50:13,010 [speaking French] 587 00:50:13,010 --> 00:50:18,705 [♪♪♪] 588 00:50:18,705 --> 00:50:20,845 [speaking French] 589 00:50:29,060 --> 00:50:31,683 [speaking French] 590 00:50:36,550 --> 00:50:38,794 She was gonna tell on them. 591 00:50:38,794 --> 00:50:43,385 This is not right, she says, what you're doing to that boy. 592 00:50:48,493 --> 00:50:50,254 [speaking French] 593 00:51:00,333 --> 00:51:02,576 [Speaking French] 594 00:51:11,792 --> 00:51:14,140 [speaking French] 595 00:51:14,140 --> 00:51:20,836 [♪♪♪] 596 00:51:20,836 --> 00:51:22,562 [speaking French] 597 00:51:22,562 --> 00:51:35,368 [♪♪♪] 598 00:51:35,368 --> 00:51:37,439 The girl. 599 00:51:37,439 --> 00:51:40,166 Girl? 600 00:51:40,166 --> 00:51:42,133 The other room. Help her. 601 00:51:42,133 --> 00:51:49,934 [♪♪♪] 602 00:51:49,934 --> 00:51:52,178 She was gone. 603 00:51:52,178 --> 00:51:54,835 They had come and got her, they took her. 604 00:51:54,835 --> 00:52:05,639 [♪♪♪] 605 00:52:05,639 --> 00:52:08,711 I don't know what kind of God they have that loves to hurt 606 00:52:08,711 --> 00:52:12,025 another human being. 607 00:52:12,025 --> 00:52:15,270 Their understanding of God is a kind person, 608 00:52:15,270 --> 00:52:17,962 you know, that's forgiving. 609 00:52:17,962 --> 00:52:20,482 And all the things they did to us, 610 00:52:20,482 --> 00:52:23,554 what kind of God do they have? 611 00:52:28,283 --> 00:52:32,218 All the other physical abuse was nothing compared to being locked 612 00:52:32,218 --> 00:52:34,634 up in that place. 613 00:52:34,634 --> 00:52:48,165 [♪♪♪] 614 00:52:48,165 --> 00:52:50,857 I guess I was in there a week and a half. 615 00:52:50,857 --> 00:52:57,553 [♪♪♪] 616 00:52:57,553 --> 00:53:01,695 And the only reason I was put in there because I was lonesome. 617 00:53:01,695 --> 00:53:11,981 [♪♪♪] 618 00:53:11,981 --> 00:53:16,123 She washed me up. 619 00:53:16,123 --> 00:53:21,405 First time ever washed in a tub 'cause we used to have showers 620 00:53:21,405 --> 00:53:23,269 in the school. 621 00:53:24,718 --> 00:53:26,479 Thank you. 622 00:53:26,479 --> 00:53:38,145 [♪♪♪] 623 00:53:38,145 --> 00:53:42,460 It's all right, Glen. 624 00:53:42,460 --> 00:53:46,015 They won't hurt you again. 625 00:53:46,015 --> 00:53:49,674 You'll see, it's gonna be all right now. 626 00:53:49,674 --> 00:53:53,851 [♪♪♪] 627 00:53:53,851 --> 00:53:56,578 She said she was gonna watch over me, that they won't, 628 00:53:56,578 --> 00:53:58,614 they won't do anything to me. 629 00:53:58,614 --> 00:54:05,414 [♪♪♪] 630 00:54:05,414 --> 00:54:07,968 Okay, I'll be back. 631 00:54:07,968 --> 00:54:20,809 [♪♪♪] 632 00:54:26,055 --> 00:54:27,747 And then she was gone. 633 00:54:31,371 --> 00:54:34,892 At Christmastime, they sent that nun away 'cause she tried 634 00:54:34,892 --> 00:54:36,790 to speak up for me. 635 00:54:38,309 --> 00:54:48,285 [truck motor rumbling] 636 00:54:48,285 --> 00:54:58,260 [truck motor rumbling] 637 00:54:58,260 --> 00:55:15,691 [truck motor rumbling] 638 00:55:15,691 --> 00:55:17,348 He'll never hurt you again. 639 00:55:17,348 --> 00:55:22,526 [truck motor rumbling] 640 00:55:22,526 --> 00:55:24,321 He's going to another school. 641 00:55:24,321 --> 00:55:30,430 [♪♪♪] 642 00:55:30,430 --> 00:55:34,641 Some things you just learn to accept, you have, like, 643 00:55:34,641 --> 00:55:37,126 no control over. 644 00:55:37,126 --> 00:55:41,993 After that, I never asked to go home 'cause I always thought if 645 00:55:41,993 --> 00:55:45,721 I asked to go home, they'd put me in that place again. 646 00:55:45,721 --> 00:55:55,559 [♪♪♪] 647 00:55:55,559 --> 00:55:58,147 They always say some day. 648 00:55:58,147 --> 00:56:05,327 [♪♪♪] 649 00:56:05,327 --> 00:56:09,607 People will listen, some day they'll believe. 650 00:56:09,607 --> 00:56:12,921 [♪♪♪] 651 00:56:14,750 --> 00:56:24,450 [children chattering in background] 652 00:56:24,450 --> 00:56:26,072 Hey, Glen! 653 00:56:26,072 --> 00:56:29,075 When she turns away, we'll go. 654 00:56:29,075 --> 00:56:30,870 What if we get caught? 655 00:56:30,870 --> 00:56:33,010 They bring us back. 656 00:56:33,010 --> 00:56:34,770 They'll give us a lickin'. 657 00:56:34,770 --> 00:56:36,876 They'll give us a lickin' whatever we do. 658 00:56:36,876 --> 00:56:46,851 [♪♪♪] 659 00:56:46,851 --> 00:56:56,827 [♪♪♪] 660 00:56:56,827 --> 00:57:03,212 [♪♪♪] 661 00:57:03,212 --> 00:57:05,491 How long do you figure to the Reserve? 662 00:57:05,491 --> 00:57:07,527 A couple of days. 663 00:57:07,527 --> 00:57:11,600 We, we should have got more than a couple of potatoes to eat. 664 00:57:11,600 --> 00:57:14,534 We could stop at our Aunt's place in Qu'Appelle. 665 00:57:14,534 --> 00:57:16,502 Yeah, she's a nice lady. 666 00:57:16,502 --> 00:57:18,055 It's only 30 miles. 667 00:57:18,055 --> 00:57:19,608 We could make that easy. 668 00:57:19,608 --> 00:57:26,719 [♪♪♪] [bell ringing] 669 00:57:26,719 --> 00:57:29,135 [♪♪♪] 670 00:57:29,135 --> 00:57:30,619 Come on now, hurry up. 671 00:57:34,140 --> 00:57:35,348 No talking. 672 00:57:45,600 --> 00:57:47,671 Open your books to page 27. 673 00:57:53,504 --> 00:57:54,954 Where are the others? 674 00:57:58,129 --> 00:57:59,821 Where are they? 675 00:58:08,415 --> 00:58:13,766 [children laughing] 676 00:58:13,766 --> 00:58:25,432 [♪♪♪] 677 00:58:25,432 --> 00:58:28,470 We felt like we were on top of the world, yeah, 678 00:58:28,470 --> 00:58:32,370 that we finally we can I guess have that, 679 00:58:32,370 --> 00:58:34,545 a little bit of freedom. 680 00:58:34,545 --> 00:58:44,728 [♪♪♪] 681 00:58:44,728 --> 00:58:47,178 >>Glen: We stayed away from the roads, 682 00:58:47,178 --> 00:58:50,630 that way we could see anybody coming. 683 00:58:50,630 --> 00:58:58,776 [♪♪♪] 684 00:58:58,776 --> 00:59:04,644 We knew where we were going, and we just kept walking. 685 00:59:04,644 --> 00:59:14,620 [♪♪♪] 686 00:59:14,620 --> 00:59:29,048 [♪♪♪] 687 00:59:29,048 --> 00:59:30,981 [knocking] 688 00:59:30,981 --> 00:59:36,089 [♪♪♪] 689 00:59:47,791 --> 00:59:50,034 You'd think you haven't eaten for a week. 690 00:59:50,034 --> 00:59:52,899 The food is terrible at school. 691 00:59:52,899 --> 00:59:54,798 There's worms in the bread sometimes. 692 00:59:54,798 --> 00:59:57,007 Nonsense, they wouldn't give you rotten food. 693 00:59:58,905 --> 01:00:01,356 We'll never have to eat it again. 694 01:00:04,739 --> 01:00:07,051 We'll take some with us, okay, Aunty? 695 01:00:07,051 --> 01:00:08,605 Of course. 696 01:00:09,778 --> 01:00:11,228 [knocking] 697 01:00:15,750 --> 01:00:18,822 We'll be back on the Reserve tomorrow if we don't stop. 698 01:00:26,761 --> 01:00:29,729 Yes, I called. 699 01:00:29,729 --> 01:00:33,146 You boys are getting a good education. 700 01:00:33,146 --> 01:00:36,080 I won't let you throw your lives away. 701 01:00:36,080 --> 01:00:43,605 [♪♪♪] 702 01:00:43,605 --> 01:00:46,056 No, let me go! 703 01:00:56,825 --> 01:00:58,689 You inspired these boys to runaway too. 704 01:01:07,871 --> 01:01:09,666 I hope you're proud of yourself. 705 01:01:11,771 --> 01:01:13,600 You're first. 706 01:01:13,600 --> 01:01:15,326 The rest of you against the wall. 707 01:01:16,638 --> 01:01:19,848 I guess amongst ourselves, we said, 708 01:01:19,848 --> 01:01:24,715 "Oh, I'm not gonna let them do that to us, we'll fight back." 709 01:01:24,715 --> 01:01:27,891 I said, "As soon as he tries to give one, we'll all jump." 710 01:01:33,103 --> 01:01:35,001 Get him! 711 01:01:35,001 --> 01:01:40,627 [grunting and groaning] 712 01:01:40,627 --> 01:01:42,146 Get him on the floor! 713 01:01:42,146 --> 01:01:44,770 He was like a big bear and a bunch of wolves attacking him, 714 01:01:44,770 --> 01:01:46,737 and the bear doesn't know which way to turn. 715 01:01:46,737 --> 01:01:49,567 I can still picture that. 716 01:01:49,567 --> 01:01:51,880 Get him down! 717 01:01:51,880 --> 01:01:54,020 I said let go! 718 01:01:54,020 --> 01:01:55,677 [thump] 719 01:01:55,677 --> 01:01:57,437 Jump on him! Jump on him! 720 01:01:57,437 --> 01:02:00,717 [grunting] 721 01:02:00,717 --> 01:02:02,649 You filthy savages! 722 01:02:02,649 --> 01:02:04,859 Let go of me! 723 01:02:04,859 --> 01:02:06,619 Get him! 724 01:02:09,656 --> 01:02:12,107 You'll all be sorry, the bunch of you. 725 01:02:12,107 --> 01:02:14,040 You better run! 726 01:02:14,040 --> 01:02:17,181 [cheering] 727 01:02:17,181 --> 01:02:19,252 We showed that son of a bitch who's boss. 728 01:02:26,121 --> 01:02:28,020 >>Glen: He locked us in. 729 01:02:28,020 --> 01:02:29,849 Go through the window. 730 01:02:29,849 --> 01:02:31,471 We tried to see how we could get out, 731 01:02:31,471 --> 01:02:34,785 but we were three stories up and there was no way out 732 01:02:34,785 --> 01:02:36,994 even with the window. 733 01:02:36,994 --> 01:02:39,894 They're coming back, we gotta get out! 734 01:02:39,894 --> 01:02:47,073 [♪♪♪] 735 01:02:47,073 --> 01:02:49,075 We knew what was coming, 736 01:02:49,075 --> 01:02:53,286 and we just hoped we'd be able to get through it. 737 01:02:53,286 --> 01:02:57,774 [♪♪♪] 738 01:02:57,774 --> 01:03:02,054 The fear of whether you'd be able to and do it, 739 01:03:02,054 --> 01:03:06,403 that was the biggest thing that went through us. 740 01:03:06,403 --> 01:03:20,762 [♪♪♪] 741 01:03:22,522 --> 01:03:26,009 And they really had their way with us. 742 01:03:26,009 --> 01:03:30,737 [♪♪♪] 743 01:03:30,737 --> 01:03:36,743 We all ended up in the infirmary over a week. 744 01:03:36,743 --> 01:03:41,438 [♪♪♪] 745 01:03:41,438 --> 01:03:45,442 We paid the price because we really got a serious beating for 746 01:03:45,442 --> 01:03:49,653 it, but we always cherished that thought that we fought back. 747 01:03:49,653 --> 01:03:57,903 [♪♪♪] 748 01:03:57,903 --> 01:04:00,353 What is God? 749 01:04:00,353 --> 01:04:04,185 God is a spiritinfinitely perfect.Children: God is a spirit infinitely perfect. 750 01:04:06,359 --> 01:04:09,086 That God of beginning... 751 01:04:09,086 --> 01:04:12,296 God has no beginning.Children: God has no beginning. 752 01:04:12,296 --> 01:04:16,300 He always was andhe always will be.Children: He always was and he always will be. 753 01:04:16,300 --> 01:04:21,064 Where is God? 754 01:04:21,064 --> 01:04:23,514 Children: God is everywhere. 755 01:04:23,514 --> 01:04:33,421 [♪♪♪] 756 01:04:33,421 --> 01:04:37,563 We were in a hopeless situation. 757 01:04:37,563 --> 01:04:40,290 I had nowhere to turn. 758 01:04:40,290 --> 01:04:42,775 You just had to live through it. 759 01:04:42,775 --> 01:04:47,504 [♪♪♪] 760 01:04:49,195 --> 01:04:52,681 [car motor rumbling] 761 01:05:02,174 --> 01:05:03,830 Here she is. 762 01:05:03,830 --> 01:05:05,660 Here are her things. 763 01:05:05,660 --> 01:05:06,903 Come with me. 764 01:05:08,421 --> 01:05:13,219 You there, 99, take her inside. 765 01:05:13,219 --> 01:05:24,713 [birdsong] 766 01:05:25,852 --> 01:05:29,235 [cats meowing in distance] 767 01:05:29,235 --> 01:05:33,550 [crickets chirping] 768 01:05:33,550 --> 01:05:36,208 [♪♪♪] 769 01:05:36,208 --> 01:05:46,183 [♪♪♪] [sobbing] 770 01:05:46,183 --> 01:05:52,603 [♪♪♪] [sobbing] 771 01:05:52,603 --> 01:05:54,709 The little ones would cry. 772 01:05:54,709 --> 01:05:57,919 They would cry at night because they were hungry. 773 01:05:57,919 --> 01:06:07,964 [♪♪♪] [sobbing] 774 01:06:07,964 --> 01:06:14,142 [♪♪♪] [sobbing] 775 01:06:14,142 --> 01:06:16,903 I'm here now, I'm here. 776 01:06:16,903 --> 01:06:26,879 [♪♪♪] [humming] 777 01:06:26,879 --> 01:06:35,784 [♪♪♪] [humming] 778 01:06:35,784 --> 01:06:38,132 We were given different chores to do in order 779 01:06:38,132 --> 01:06:41,031 to change our behaviour and, of course, 780 01:06:41,031 --> 01:06:43,137 conform to what they wanted. 781 01:06:43,137 --> 01:06:48,004 What was required of me was to bring food to the priests 782 01:06:48,004 --> 01:06:54,113 and the nuns, and the food that I took there was, you know, 783 01:06:54,113 --> 01:06:57,841 fresh apples and oranges, vegetables from the garden, 784 01:06:57,841 --> 01:07:04,261 all kinds of desserts that you could imagine, cakes, cookies. 785 01:07:04,261 --> 01:07:09,542 And when I compared it to what we ate, there was no comparison. 786 01:07:09,542 --> 01:07:16,135 Everything that was left over from days and weeks were all 787 01:07:16,135 --> 01:07:19,449 cooked together, and that's what we were presented with. 788 01:07:19,449 --> 01:07:29,424 [♪♪♪] 789 01:07:29,424 --> 01:07:40,297 [♪♪♪] 790 01:07:40,297 --> 01:07:42,575 I spent a lot of my duties in the kitchen. 791 01:07:44,025 --> 01:07:46,476 I want you to clean these dishes, okay. 792 01:07:48,581 --> 01:07:51,446 Sometimes I was in the kitchen because I was being punished 793 01:07:51,446 --> 01:07:52,999 for something I did. 794 01:07:52,999 --> 01:08:02,975 [♪♪♪] 795 01:08:02,975 --> 01:08:13,019 [♪♪♪] 796 01:08:13,019 --> 01:08:28,276 [♪♪♪] 797 01:08:54,337 --> 01:08:58,617 [speaking Indian] 798 01:08:58,617 --> 01:09:09,800 [♪♪♪] 799 01:09:09,800 --> 01:09:11,319 [gasp] 800 01:09:11,319 --> 01:09:13,218 What do you think you're doing? 801 01:09:13,218 --> 01:09:14,598 Where did you get these apples? 802 01:09:17,601 --> 01:09:19,534 I stole them. 803 01:09:19,534 --> 01:09:21,605 Why? 804 01:09:21,605 --> 01:09:23,987 For the children. 805 01:09:23,987 --> 01:09:27,266 Every night they cry them self to sleep from hunger. 806 01:09:27,266 --> 01:09:31,374 You've seen what they give us to eat, it makes us sick. 807 01:09:31,374 --> 01:09:34,860 Report me, I don't care. 808 01:09:34,860 --> 01:09:41,522 [♪♪♪] 809 01:09:41,522 --> 01:09:43,765 Come with me. 810 01:09:43,765 --> 01:09:48,011 All of you, out of your beds, come, come with me! 811 01:09:49,185 --> 01:09:51,566 And I thought, oh no. 812 01:09:53,119 --> 01:09:54,811 No talking. 813 01:09:56,571 --> 01:09:59,264 Quickly, quickly. 814 01:10:00,299 --> 01:10:04,269 She went and got a box of bread, a huge jar of peanut butter, 815 01:10:04,269 --> 01:10:07,410 and she went into the kitchen and made a great big, 816 01:10:07,410 --> 01:10:09,205 huge pot of cocoa. 817 01:10:09,205 --> 01:10:19,180 [♪♪♪] 818 01:10:19,180 --> 01:10:29,501 [♪♪♪] 819 01:10:29,501 --> 01:10:31,917 We told her we were hungry... 820 01:10:31,917 --> 01:10:34,851 Shh! 821 01:10:34,851 --> 01:10:38,648 [♪♪♪] 822 01:10:38,648 --> 01:10:40,443 ...so she fed us. 823 01:10:40,443 --> 01:10:50,418 [♪♪♪] [giggling] 824 01:10:50,418 --> 01:10:58,875 [♪♪♪] [giggling] 825 01:10:58,875 --> 01:11:01,567 [♪♪♪] 826 01:11:01,567 --> 01:11:10,714 [birdsong] 827 01:11:14,131 --> 01:11:15,754 [clacking] 828 01:11:15,754 --> 01:11:17,997 [♪♪♪] [clacking] 829 01:11:17,997 --> 01:11:21,829 I remember the last day of school. 830 01:11:21,829 --> 01:11:27,524 I felt a freeness, almost like I had a huge burden that was being 831 01:11:27,524 --> 01:11:29,561 taken away from me. 832 01:11:29,561 --> 01:11:39,709 [♪♪♪] 833 01:11:39,709 --> 01:11:45,093 And I remember talking to one of my grandfathers. 834 01:11:45,093 --> 01:11:49,270 All he told me was you're not gonna be there forever. 835 01:11:49,270 --> 01:11:52,446 Life doesn't have to be that way, he says. 836 01:11:52,446 --> 01:11:57,796 When you get out you can live the life the way you feel 837 01:11:57,796 --> 01:12:00,039 it has to be. 838 01:12:02,559 --> 01:12:07,599 And I always prayed for that age when I get out of there. 839 01:12:07,599 --> 01:12:17,574 [♪♪♪] 840 01:12:17,574 --> 01:12:24,029 [♪♪♪] 841 01:12:24,029 --> 01:12:27,446 I had so much rage. 842 01:12:27,446 --> 01:12:31,070 It took a long time to make peace with the church. 843 01:12:31,070 --> 01:12:38,975 [♪♪♪] 844 01:12:38,975 --> 01:12:41,943 When I got out of Residential school, 845 01:12:41,943 --> 01:12:48,294 I made a promise to myself, I was gonna try to live the way 846 01:12:48,294 --> 01:12:55,474 I felt life should be lived, but it was hard once you got out 847 01:12:55,474 --> 01:12:57,821 of there too. 848 01:12:57,821 --> 01:13:07,866 [♪♪♪] 849 01:13:07,866 --> 01:13:13,527 [♪♪♪] 850 01:13:13,527 --> 01:13:15,529 You're all of a sudden in a different world 851 01:13:15,529 --> 01:13:17,393 where there's so much freedom. 852 01:13:19,981 --> 01:13:23,433 Just like a lot of those that are in jail a long time. 853 01:13:23,433 --> 01:13:27,403 All that feeling they can't handle it, same with us. 854 01:13:27,403 --> 01:13:33,857 A great majority of us, we couldn't handle that freedom. 855 01:13:33,857 --> 01:13:36,446 [♪♪♪] [horses neighing] 856 01:13:36,446 --> 01:13:46,422 [♪♪♪] 857 01:13:46,422 --> 01:13:51,530 [♪♪♪] 858 01:13:51,530 --> 01:13:59,124 My friends, well a lot of them died alcohol related deaths, 859 01:13:59,124 --> 01:14:04,750 suicides when they got out of school. 860 01:14:04,750 --> 01:14:15,934 [♪♪♪] 861 01:14:15,934 --> 01:14:18,833 And I come so close to doing that. 862 01:14:18,833 --> 01:14:23,562 [♪♪♪] 863 01:14:23,562 --> 01:14:29,465 I was a orphan, and it's a hard way to live. 864 01:14:29,465 --> 01:14:34,193 I used to always see others that had parents, 865 01:14:34,193 --> 01:14:36,955 and I used to kind of envy them that they're so lucky, 866 01:14:36,955 --> 01:14:38,853 they're so lucky to have parents; 867 01:14:38,853 --> 01:14:42,823 they don't know what it's like to grow up without parents. 868 01:14:42,823 --> 01:14:46,723 And I used to always say that, you know, 869 01:14:46,723 --> 01:14:53,523 I wish my children will never be orphans. 870 01:14:53,523 --> 01:14:58,942 But like you see when a lot of us, when we left school, 871 01:14:58,942 --> 01:15:04,776 we turned to alcohol, and there was a point in my life it became 872 01:15:04,776 --> 01:15:07,399 a real bad problem for me. 873 01:15:10,402 --> 01:15:12,749 I was gonna kill myself. 874 01:15:12,749 --> 01:15:15,545 And I went up in the hills, and I had my rifle, 875 01:15:15,545 --> 01:15:18,237 and my two oldest kids followed me. 876 01:15:18,237 --> 01:15:28,558 [♪♪♪] 877 01:15:28,558 --> 01:15:30,595 I was just gonna pull the trigger, 878 01:15:30,595 --> 01:15:35,738 just like this voice spoke to me and told me what are you doing? 879 01:15:35,738 --> 01:15:38,395 You're doing what you said you'd never do, 880 01:15:38,395 --> 01:15:41,709 and I realized that if I killed myself, 881 01:15:41,709 --> 01:15:44,091 my children would be orphans. 882 01:15:47,128 --> 01:15:52,202 I said I'd never think of doing that again 'cause I love 883 01:15:52,202 --> 01:15:54,860 my children so much that I didn't want them to go through 884 01:15:54,860 --> 01:15:57,449 what I went through being an orphan. 885 01:15:57,449 --> 01:16:06,769 [♪♪♪] 886 01:16:09,323 --> 01:16:19,298 [♪♪♪] 887 01:16:19,298 --> 01:16:29,274 [♪♪♪] 888 01:16:29,274 --> 01:16:35,660 [♪♪♪] 889 01:16:35,660 --> 01:16:39,353 Mr. Speaker, I stand beforeyou today to offer an apology 890 01:16:39,353 --> 01:16:43,150 to former students of IndianResidential schools. 891 01:16:43,150 --> 01:16:46,394 The treatment of children inIndian Residential schools 892 01:16:46,394 --> 01:16:50,088 is a sad chapter in our history. 893 01:16:50,088 --> 01:16:54,748 Two primary objectives of the Residential school system 894 01:16:54,748 --> 01:16:58,752 were to remove and isolate children from the influence 895 01:16:58,752 --> 01:17:02,756 of their home, families, traditions and cultures, 896 01:17:02,756 --> 01:17:07,519 and to assimilate them into the dominant culture. 897 01:17:07,519 --> 01:17:11,005 These objectives were based on the assumption that aboriginal 898 01:17:11,005 --> 01:17:16,045 cultures and spiritual beliefs were inferior and unequal. 899 01:17:16,045 --> 01:17:19,324 Indeed some saw it, as was infamously said, 900 01:17:19,324 --> 01:17:22,016 to kill the Indian in the child. 901 01:17:22,016 --> 01:17:27,021 [♪♪♪] 902 01:17:27,021 --> 01:17:34,166 When I hear people that firmly believe that nothing happened 903 01:17:34,166 --> 01:17:39,516 in the schools, well, I can tell my story, 904 01:17:39,516 --> 01:17:43,037 and I can tell them this is what happened. 905 01:17:46,489 --> 01:17:49,665 The anger is gone. 906 01:17:49,665 --> 01:17:57,293 There's just, I guess, sadness and that of what, 907 01:17:57,293 --> 01:18:02,470 of what happened, and hopefully it never happens again. 908 01:18:05,128 --> 01:18:07,993 We now recognize that it was wrong to separate children 909 01:18:07,993 --> 01:18:12,066 from rich and vibrant cultures and traditions, 910 01:18:12,066 --> 01:18:15,760 that it created a void in many lives and communities, 911 01:18:15,760 --> 01:18:19,522 and we apologize for having done this. 912 01:18:19,522 --> 01:18:22,283 We now recognize that in separating children from their 913 01:18:22,283 --> 01:18:27,288 families, we undermine the ability of many to adequately 914 01:18:27,288 --> 01:18:29,359 parent their own children, 915 01:18:29,359 --> 01:18:33,467 and sow the seeds for generations to follow. 916 01:18:33,467 --> 01:18:36,642 The Government of Canada sincerely apologizes and asks 917 01:18:36,642 --> 01:18:39,680 the forgiveness of the aboriginal peoples 918 01:18:39,680 --> 01:18:44,236 of this country for failing them so profoundly. 919 01:18:44,236 --> 01:18:55,627 [♪♪♪] 920 01:18:55,627 --> 01:18:58,285 I believe that they were trying to annihilate us, 921 01:18:58,285 --> 01:19:04,118 and they couldn't because what they did to us, 922 01:19:04,118 --> 01:19:07,984 and everything that we've had to live through, 923 01:19:07,984 --> 01:19:14,577 only made us stronger, made us more determined. 924 01:19:17,545 --> 01:19:19,685 There's another carrot. 925 01:19:19,685 --> 01:19:22,343 [♪♪♪] 926 01:19:22,343 --> 01:19:24,069 Here, you want another one, Caitlin? 927 01:19:24,069 --> 01:19:25,933 Here you go. 928 01:19:25,933 --> 01:19:28,315 The other way, babe. 929 01:19:28,315 --> 01:19:30,696 Here's another carrot. 930 01:19:30,696 --> 01:19:43,399 [♪♪♪] 931 01:19:43,399 --> 01:19:45,228 We're okay. 932 01:19:45,228 --> 01:19:59,864 [♪♪♪] 933 01:19:59,864 --> 01:20:03,626 What happened there, it didn't have to happen, 934 01:20:03,626 --> 01:20:07,043 but also don't keep it a secret, don't hide it, 935 01:20:07,043 --> 01:20:11,151 for the people to know that things like that happen, 936 01:20:11,151 --> 01:20:14,292 they didn't have to happen. 937 01:20:14,292 --> 01:20:26,407 [♪♪♪] 938 01:20:26,407 --> 01:20:29,617 And at least I got to talk about it. 939 01:20:29,617 --> 01:20:35,106 It took a long time, but finally able to speak. 940 01:20:35,106 --> 01:20:48,119 [♪♪♪] 941 01:20:59,061 --> 01:21:09,209 [♪♪♪] 942 01:21:09,209 --> 01:21:19,219 [♪♪♪] 943 01:21:19,219 --> 01:21:34,820 [♪♪♪]